I don't typically ask for "hand outs" but I feel this is different. I need help... I need a void in my heart partially healed and this is the only way I can even think to ask for help. I hate asking.
I have a healthy 7 year
old son who always wanted a baby brother. 4 years ago, I had my second son
Maxxton. Life was good.
My,
now ex husband talked me into getting my tubes tied. He had other kids from a
previous marriage. I had my two boys and life was going well.
Maxxton
was 6 1/2 weeks old when he passed away from SIDS. I have regretted getting my
tubes tied the whole time, but thought there was nothing I could do about it
and that I would just live with the fact I couldn't have another baby.
My son
asks me all the time why I can't have another child, but I have no answers. My
heart feels like pieces are missing. Which they are, I know I will never get
all the pieces back but I know I can love and take care of a baby again.
There's nothing I wouldn't do in order to add to my little family again.
I have
been saving every last thing I possibly can. We have sold un-needed items from
our house. Pretty much trying to get the last bit that we can. We would
like to have the surgery done in April but are a little under $5k
short.
I'd do
anything to be able to hold a baby of my own again. I am missing something in
life and I know this has a lot to do with it.
I
appreciate any and all help I can get right now.
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