Just emotional right now...

So I was told that I am being "greedy" by setting up a gofundme page to have my tubes untied... I'm not asking anyone for ALL the money to have a baby. I have saved every penny. We have sold furniture, stickers, mugs, pretty much anything we can to get the money. Is it greedy that I just want to hold a baby of my own?? I'm sorry my son passed away from SIDS.. I can't change that. Very few people that even know me can actually relate to the loss I feel without my baby... If you remotely feel that I have one greedy bone in my body because of this,

I don't need or want you in my life.  I am saving the money with or without help!! It's just taking longer without the compassion or empathy from people.  

Baby - After SIDS loss - Please help me

I don't typically ask for "hand outs" but I feel this is different. I need help... I need a void in my heart partially healed and this is the only way I can even think to ask for help. I hate asking.

http://www.gofundme.com/m41dfo

I have a healthy 7 year old son who always wanted a baby brother. 4 years ago, I had my second son Maxxton. Life was good. 

My, now ex husband talked me into getting my tubes tied. He had other kids from a previous marriage. I had my two boys and life was going well. 

Maxxton was 6 1/2 weeks old when he passed away from SIDS. I have regretted getting my tubes tied the whole time, but thought there was nothing I could do about it and that I would just live with the fact I couldn't have another baby. 

My son asks me all the time why I can't have another child, but I have no answers. My heart feels like pieces are missing. Which they are, I know I will never get all the pieces back but I know I can love and take care of a baby again. There's nothing I wouldn't do in order to add to my little family again.

I have been saving every last thing I possibly can. We have sold un-needed items from our house. Pretty much trying to get the last bit that we can.  We would like to have the surgery done in April but are a little under $5k short. 

I'd do anything to be able to hold a baby of my own again. I am missing something in life and I know this has a lot to do with it. 

I appreciate any and all help I can get right now.